In December of 2017 I was diagnosed with prostate cancer. The story of all that is amazing in itself, but I will save that for another time. I had surgery on March 12, 2018. And as I write this on Sunday, January 27, 2019 I am cancer free. There is a whole lot that goes into all that but like I said, another day.
The part that I really can’t stop thinking about I get from Matthew 6:25-34, Do Not Worry, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life,…” Once I was diagnosed in December I could not see past March. I am a planner and a worrier. That’s how I function. I don’t think it’s good but I can’t help it. But during those four months, I lived for that day, or that moment. It was the most peaceful feeling eve, to be free from my normal daily worries. Yes, I did have the thought of CANCER is in my body. But, I truly was at peace. I have never experienced a peace like this before. It was like God scooped me up in His hands and said it will be okay.
After the surgery, and now almost a year later, I am cancer free and I have struggled with the thought of why cancer gave me freedom of worry, but knowing my Lord Jesus Christ didn’t. Or, did He use that event as a catalyst to have me understand that Bible verse. He knows how dense I am and shows Himself to me in a unique way. He has shown me that He has my back many times since then, but sometimes I still struggle with the ability to live for the moment.
I am so grateful for that lesson (not the cancer), and I continue to learn from it. Thank you Lord for going before me. Thank you for already having everything covered. And thank you for teaching me so that I may understand it.