To God, sin has substance. It’s not just a theological concept given to keep people in their place or to put a name on their poor actions. It has mass and weight. He referred to it as filth. We cannot be in His presence with sin. He is pure light, pure joy. Sin is the opposite of all God is. I understood that He created us to be with Him forever. That is what He wants of every one of us. So because of our sin spirit we cannot be in His presence. He took care of it all. He gave us His Son to take upon Himself all of our filth, and went to the cross where His blood washed it all away and made us pure. He did all this just because He wants to spend forever with us. Do you understand that?! In spite of us, He took care of it. I cannot accurately describe the horror of the feeling of sin. I also cannot describe the great joy in God for the sacrifice that He made on our part. We had nothing to do with it. It is His grace. You really need to understand that He did all this just because He wants to spend forever with us. That is how much He loves us.
So, how did this change me? What was once just a mental concept for me now became real....very, very real. Before, I believed God loved me because His word said it was so. Now, I have an emotional experience associated with it all. I now know what it feels like to be loved by God. I understand it in a visceral way.
Twenty five years ago I had my first experience with God that was part of what set me on my walk with Him. I have seen God work in my life in small ways like He has in the life of many people. However, after this last experience, I have had a few thoughts that won’t leave me. First, I am very careful in what I ask God to show me. If you ask Him, He will answer. Second, now what do I do with all this? Well, this is the beginning of all that. I have heard of people being saved in an instant. It took me 25 years. I told you I was a little dense.